Here is a story...
Dem ppl : You've been living live for 18 yrs by far so, what's your highest achievement?
Me : I don't know..
Will be continued...
Startling Opinion or Shocking Secret?
If you're straight then why are you infatuated with a woman? I wish that was a normal thing. Lately, I feel absurdly obligated to check out guys to validate my identity. Probably because I've been watching gay movies recently. It undeniably has changed my perception towards LGBT community though, I mean, love can happen no matter in what situation. Still, I have my own view about it. I don't gauge people right off bat, because even if I wasn't me, I still would want myself not to be judged right away. Open our eyes wide and let's see each other for who we really are and not how we merely perceive others to be. Just because someone's gay, doesn't mean we can put them on the side and make them totally feel like they're out of the norm. Yeh probably some of us would think that way, because different place, different wavelength. I can see that. However, I insist to have my own outlooks and not due to stereotype or typical minded. I'd like to see things from different side of view. I know not everyone links to what I'm talking about. It's alright. I don't talk about this publicly(I'd probably be sent to Rehab if they find out 'bout any of this) tho so I feel like writing it could help me to get this off my hands a while before it strikes again in any time.
Back to sexuality confusion...ahhh such a labyrinth topic isn't it?
Since I was a lil kid, I knew that I wasn't that girly, but I admit that I was also that kinda girl who owned a set of doll and wore princess gowns, but anything can happen throughout the years. As I grow up, I could feel the change in me, my way of thinking, myself, my sexuality, but I haven't thought of anything at that time and I did have a few crushes before.
And then I went to middle school, things changed drastically, I was just an old-fashioned girl who's living a mediocre lifestyle and then abruptly middle school had more in store for me, making my life quite an obstacle. I was caught again in perplexity but I managed not to 'feed' it so that I didn't need to care about it so much. So there was a girl, a senior, such a kinky little freshman that I was right? She's hella pretty and had ponytail styled hair, her name starts with M. In short, she was perfect and I think I've developed a little crush on her at that time. Too bad I only recognized that feeling now, perhaps because I was too disinclined to admit it before. Well, thanks it didn't happen anyway. So I told a friend on internet, on messenger at that time and all his respond was "That's what we call jealousy". Dammit man, I just went along with it cause he was prolly right. Well, that's first.
Second :-
I always caught checking out girl's ass and sometimes get a blush whenever cute girls talk to me. Well, that seems normal. Isn't it? Err...and I find myself trying to flirt whenever there's a chance. I've shown interest in woman a few times.
Third :-
I have no desire to act like a proper lady or dress up like a decent woman.
Well...people,
I know I'm not supposed to say things like this as a Muslim. I'm well aware that in Islam, same gender relationship is a sin. I can understand that and I'm not denying it, but I also have nothing against LGBT's...since I feel like I'm one of them. Sometimes we all just need friends and accept each other and this shouldn't be a problem but in Islam, homosexuality isn't allowed and it's haraam and sinful act to commit.
“A person is not to be blamed for his nature. Rather, he is to be blamed if he acts according to his nature.” -Al-Junayd in ‘Hilyat al-Awliya"
In conclusion, NO ONE is condemned to Hell simply because they have a desire that is not permissible to engage in.
.
.
Sweet end...
Back to sexuality confusion...ahhh such a labyrinth topic isn't it?
Since I was a lil kid, I knew that I wasn't that girly, but I admit that I was also that kinda girl who owned a set of doll and wore princess gowns, but anything can happen throughout the years. As I grow up, I could feel the change in me, my way of thinking, myself, my sexuality, but I haven't thought of anything at that time and I did have a few crushes before.
And then I went to middle school, things changed drastically, I was just an old-fashioned girl who's living a mediocre lifestyle and then abruptly middle school had more in store for me, making my life quite an obstacle. I was caught again in perplexity but I managed not to 'feed' it so that I didn't need to care about it so much. So there was a girl, a senior, such a kinky little freshman that I was right? She's hella pretty and had ponytail styled hair, her name starts with M. In short, she was perfect and I think I've developed a little crush on her at that time. Too bad I only recognized that feeling now, perhaps because I was too disinclined to admit it before. Well, thanks it didn't happen anyway. So I told a friend on internet, on messenger at that time and all his respond was "That's what we call jealousy". Dammit man, I just went along with it cause he was prolly right. Well, that's first.
Second :-
I always caught checking out girl's ass and sometimes get a blush whenever cute girls talk to me. Well, that seems normal. Isn't it? Err...and I find myself trying to flirt whenever there's a chance. I've shown interest in woman a few times.
Third :-
I have no desire to act like a proper lady or dress up like a decent woman.
Well...people,
I know I'm not supposed to say things like this as a Muslim. I'm well aware that in Islam, same gender relationship is a sin. I can understand that and I'm not denying it, but I also have nothing against LGBT's...since I feel like I'm one of them. Sometimes we all just need friends and accept each other and this shouldn't be a problem but in Islam, homosexuality isn't allowed and it's haraam and sinful act to commit.
“A person is not to be blamed for his nature. Rather, he is to be blamed if he acts according to his nature.” -Al-Junayd in ‘Hilyat al-Awliya"
In conclusion, NO ONE is condemned to Hell simply because they have a desire that is not permissible to engage in.
.
.
Sweet end...
