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Arghhh. Need to train myself to roll out of bed at 5 am cause another school days await. How suck that is!
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As for myself, I'm getting increasingly isolated as the day goes by. Movies and music are my close friends right now and I seem to enjoy my individual lifestyle.
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I don't think that I am 'that' lonely cause I spend most of my days reviewing latest films I've watched. How fun that is, right? I can't get rid of this obsession tho. Either I get benefits or none from this habit. Couldn't care less. Let's wait if it's coming in handy next time.
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However,
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I do feel like I need someone to talk to. Afraid of the deterioration of my conversation skill.
- Written while I was having a cup of tea in my bed, wrapping up in my warm blanket, watching MMFD season 2 and not worrying about school days...
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I gave a shit once but
people seem to continuously
stir a shit storm.
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Don't be too bothered.
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Cause apparently I can't
be bogged down
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Peace out
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- Written while I was having a breakdown and there's drama going on.
- Written while I was having a breakdown and there's drama going on.
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Since 3 of my best friends left, since all of them left, since everyone I've trusted left me. I have no urge to do anything and can't even manage to conjure up any emotions, but disappointment. People don't know the hardships I've struggled with before, but why everyone seems to suppress my way of recovering. I was struggling so hard to get over the things that bothered me for the past three weeks. I'm in the midst of recovering, but why are you people keep dragging me in to hell you created your own?
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Well, people obviously don't know. Scroll to my previous
photos with captions (Deleted! to get things off my mind) and you can clearly
see the stages I've come down with and what I've reached. I tell people I can't
be bogged down, but I'm struggling so freaking hard to even write it down. I'm
mind-setting my head to believe what my mouth says
Just whenever you think you're downright problematic person,
please ask around you about the things that bothered them. I ain't no therapy,
I can't heal people because I'm also trying to heal myself. I was at the
happier state last week and I could see that I was getting better although it's
not a breeze for me to giggle at your jokes!
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Sorry. I write so much. I have no one to talk to. This phase
of life I'm currently in isn't on my behalf. Thanks for reading.
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- Written while I was in the middle of recovering.
- Written while I was in the middle of recovering.
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Life planning on the road
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Plan it wisely from now on and never look back over your
shoulder. I believe that every time I thought I was being rejected from
something good, I was actually being re-directed to something better!
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Yesterday I saw a poster on pre-u building's wall. It says
'HOPE'.
Have
Only
Positive
Expectations
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As my teacher said during the SV class, get rid of all the
things that block you, put them at the bottom of your list or cut them at all.
Yasss!
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You do you, I do me. Let's not stop each other and keep
praying for others too.
I'm not a young high school girl anymore, so MATURE UP and
think about what you're going to do in 10 years! 👪
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Have a good day ahead, guys 🏃💆
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#straightedge #stayclean #buoyedup #iloveyoulol
- Written while I was waiting for my video finish downloading... and was in the midst of waking up from nightmare. That's life, we get *****ed up and wake up.
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